I really don't know the reason, why my mind always want to touch the far sky and why I can't do it? Am I loosing the flexibilities of my early 20's or getting old? I was just remembering a song of Nachiketa may be which explains it better...
Today Raisa, my daughter's Birthday we've celebrated at this house, both of my children Rick and Raisa were excited to cut the cakes and eat it. It was fun, my parents came along with two cakes, so that Rick (Debarko) won't mind to celebrate Didi's birthday. It was really a fun. Because she is having her real B'Day on 23rd, but that day both of my child are having their exam, so my wife made today as her B'day celebration. She really take care of her babies. I guess she wants to compensate to her children what she never got from her childhood.
Well...when mind goes alone...do we remember our childhood....I miss it really...the song below touched my soul at this moment.
I had a habit of writing diary my childhood which had been lost since the time I've lost my first love at the age of 18. Started writing blog in few months back and started feeling the urge to express myself some where, giving window to my feelings I'm going through every day, a day is lost meaning we got older by a day, and it's worth maintaining a diary. The idea suddenly stuck in my mind..."How about writing and maintaining a personal diary in Blog format?"
Wow....it's a cool idea, but what about people if they would find my feelings and started going through and know all my secret?
Well...I thought, I'm not George W. Bush or Bill Clinton that, people would be behind me and anxious to search for me in 3W's, minutely watch out my personal blog to know the scandals. Neither they would love to watch out a common man like me, what do I think or do everyday.
So...today just started writing here, honestly what I feel and go through from today I would certainly maintain a daily diary in blog format here. If some one sees it, or if some day I become who's who, this data I feel would be worth reading and would act as my auto biography. I want to just note these days down here, so that even when I get old I'll come back these pages to become young would search for my own memories.
It's just so simple to maintain a personal diary on net on daily basis in blog format, when we're daily spending our life more than 12-13 hrs on net, it would hardly take 30 minutes to write down something here. Hey...I don't care if my construction of English is poor or sentences are incorrect, because I'm doing it just for myself. One more benefit no extra cost of preservations, you just gotta write it down which might become a true manuscript and treasure of life of a common man like me, I can access it any time from any where till the time I’m alive.
Let’describe why I'm a common man....just lost my job 15 days back, yes.... got fired and searching for a job now on todays' date. Few opportunities are in pipeline...but I don't believe till the time one materializes. That’s how I had to leave US. It would be worth many posting which I would discuss later.
This is the first time I got fired in my last 12 year's career...I didn't mind because working with a Marwari is always a pain in the ass anywhere in this Earth I guess....and Arvind Kajaria is like that. He is such a dumb ass hole.... sometimes I get astonished how he built such a big business. 123Greetings is owned by him. He don't accept change management is good. So I'm sure history will not forgive him and sooner or later this business would be forgotten by the people. Any and every business has to change to cope up with the changing environment, and change is the only inevitable and constant thing in this Earth.
Darshan Sachdeva another lier and he's my previous employer with whom I’ve worked 4 years and paid me only for 3 years payment. He didn’t pay me 12 grand which is my One year salary in India. He just returned today to NYC, after spending 100 Grand in his scoundrel son's marriage. The guy is worthless, and his Dad is thinking that, after marriage his son would take care of the business. I'm sorry Mr. Sachdev, this is again not going to happen. You've again invested in the wrong place to invest and wrong man to trust. How could people still live a life on lies and loans like you? You made a castle of lies all around and live a high flying life by squeezing our money, do you think you can any time get rid of this sin? No…you gotta pay this off in this life.
Does Miracle Happen?
I've no idea, and now seriously looking for a job. Just last night I was watching the movie clipping of one of my most favorite movie named 'Gupi Gain and Bagha Bain" in UTube. I was just trying to imagine the situation in the film, if tomorrow after I wake up and see everything again in the same situation like past, I'm sitting in a big cabin in my office and became boss of a big time company drawing few thousand dollars. Is that an El Dorado? Satyajit Ray made a master piece by that. These two characters were also could sing and play, but they started paying it well in a fine morning by the blessings of the kind of Ghosts.
It happened to Gupi Gayen and Bagha bayen in the film by the grace of the king of Ghosts, but in my case it's hard reality, nothing would happen like that magical. I'm slowly getting tensed though, I can't express it to my friends and family, they would be more tensed if I act tensed.
